Another years has gone by, I cant believe how fast time goes, it seriously feels like just couple months ago we were thinking what we will do next year in 2018 and look now we are exactly in the same situation. Last night while munchin down the Christmas dinner we were talking over what a wonderful year we had, we traveled more than the previous years, we celebrated my birthday in Rome, went on summer holidays to Spain, and now in November we permanently left UK. Couple of our friends god engaged, some had their first or second kids. Definitely this has been an adventurous year. And we have already started to plant some things for the next one.
In these six years since we have been together we have always celebrated Christmas with either one of our families, last year after holidays we had achat and we thought how nice it would be to celebrate it abroad next year, fast forward a year later and our wish came true. It amazes me how manifestation works, you always get what you wish for, and if you’re willing to take the risk,and grab those opportunities by the bells , all kinds of magical things can happen. We made a very delicious vegan feast for the two of us, it was fantastic, we even had leftovers for two days, hah. We lit the candles, decorated a bit the livingroom and sat down for a lovely dinner. It was perfect, when I am with him, it feels like the world stops and its just the two of us, he is everything to me, he makes me a better person.
Sometimes I feel this weird feeling , like for the past month I have been feeling so happy, but every once in a while this feeling of guilt creeps up, like : “why are you so happy all the time?” , “do you even deserve to be so happy?”. Its so annoying how we are always trying to sabotage our own happiness, why cant we just simply be happy and not over think things? Are any of you feeling the same? How do you deal with it?
To some it might sound silly ,but every day I do my gratitudes, I say to myself what am I grateful for today, what I wish from life, what do I want to achieve, and I just simply try to boost myself with positive talks and you know what? It really helps, I do feel happier and I let myself enjoy it, otherwise I start to over think tings and then its so easily to slip back in my old thinking patterns. And another great way how to loosen it up and enjoy yourself more is dancing, just put whatever music you like and just dance, don’t think about how you look but just feel your body, feel the rhythm, I have been doing that lately and it seriously feels amazing, now in the mornings I dance around in my underwear and enjoy the happiness it makes me feel and another thing ladies, it will leave you feeling sexy, empowered, strong and beautiful, because you are one!
While watching the fireworks display from our terrace and cheering for the new 2019 I felt so at peace, like everything was in place, I felt no worries or anyting, just pure happiness with were I was and witch who I was!! I hope wherever you are and no matter what situation you are in, just appreciate it and let it go and welcome the changes! Nothing lasts forever! I wish you all a magical, colourfull, adventurous new year of 2019!! Lots of love, light and peace!